liz's Friends

simplebutclean

Subject:	The Love I Feel For John
Time:	9:34 pm.
Mood:	cold.

After all of the bitching and complaining that I've done about John...I think that its finally time to tell everyone the truth. I'm hoping for something more with John soon. I've never felt this way about anyone before. When I look into his eyes it feels like my heart has been set on fire. I know that I'm fully committed to him. I'd give everything to him if he'd ask me to. He's made me happier than anyone else in this entire world. Not even Jamison or Gray could do that for me. They helped me do things, but they never taught me more about myself. John's completed that amazing task. He's got all of the qualities that I've been looking for: caring, intelligent, motivated, cute, sarcastic, funny, beautiful eyes and smile, probably will have a good income once he gets a job, and I know that he can be a good father if he wants to be.

For Christmas he bought my son a present. He was thinking about how Elijah doesnt really talk much, so he ended up buying Elijah some sort of Leap Frog alphabet thing. It helps him learn the letters of the alphabet. I'm guessing that it was probably around $20. It impressed me that he actually thought of Elijah for Christmas. John plays with Elijah all of the time when he's here. The only thing he doesnt do is change diapers. It's good to know that he supports me and my son.

But John is basically the person that I want to marry. I can imagine myself with me when Im older. I can imagine having another child with him once we get settled down. Im pretty sure with myself that he will want to marry me too. John understands me better than anyone else has in this entire world. Hes my best friend and my lover. Hes my favorite person ever. He gets my sarcasm. I love waking up next to him every morning. I can handle his habits. He loves me for who I am, even when Im bitchy. I love it when he holds me at night. I wish that I could live with him if I could. Im trying to save some money up so I can get an apt. If I do get an apt, I want John to stay with me. Itd be the first time that Id actually live with someone without parents around. I cant wait until the day that he proposes to me. Im absolutely sure that he will.

I hope that he knows this.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Advertisement